Heaven isn’t a place; it’s a feeling …
And right now I don’t have a heavenly feeling surrounding me. I just feel very tired [despite getting lots of much needed sleep just recently … my bed feels safer than anywhere else] and rather emotional. Sometimes things just don’t seem to go right do they? I should be amazingly happy right now … And I am. I have pleasant and wonderful dreams of the future and a cute ickle diamond on my finger. But life just seems out to get me and it’s making me feel hopeless and useless. I must snap out of it lest I return to the days of anti-depressants and lethargicness. And that does worry me . I’m also hungry but I have no appetite and eating is a struggle. Humph. Mad. It’s all silly and daft really …
But onto happier topics. I woke up in the middle of the night, Monday I think it was. I was incredibly happy. And I realised that I’d woken myself up with laughter. I’ve had plenty of experiences whereby I’ve woken up from fear due to a nightmare, but I don’t ever recall waking myself up by having a good chortle. I can remember the dream that I was having … There were a group of us playing a game. We were just running round this house that seemed to belong to my sister-in-law and was quite old. As we ran through one doorway it was being held open for us by a short chubby little man with bright red hair and a beard. He was wearing dungarees. Imagine if you will the caretaker chap from The Simpsons, only rounder and less cartoon style. At this point I realised where my nephew Adam got his ginger hair from [it was a dream, J, a dream … I am not suggesting that my s-i-l has ever been unfaithful!]. As we turned the corner there was an open doorway, very low down, and I realised that I was about to bump my head on the top of it. That’s when I woke up laughing. I can’t think what was funny about it. Was it the game, the realisation of Adam’s heritage, or almost banging my head? I shall never know.
Happy Sad, Sad Happy.
God Bless Nothingness xxx Elsabeth
sounds like you’re in a lull…nothing wrong with it. i’m sure you’ll perk back up =)
in the mean time, i’ll be cheering you on from all the way in California! =)
funny dream…i don’t think i’ve ever had that experience either…where i wake up laughing from a dream…i wouldn’t mind it though. =P
that’s definitely an experience i’ll have to look forward to. I’ve never woken up laughing before.And I agree with Kurry…we all have our slumps.
Don’t panic!!!
yeees, slumps happen … big hugs honey x